If you saw me this week than you know that I have been released from my calling in Gospel Doctrine and have been called as the Primary Chorister. I am less than happy about the change so I have been griping quite a bit. I have to apologize for that. Two nights ago I prayed that I could know that there was a reason for the change and that I could feel better about it. Last night I got my answer.
I went to enrichment last night and while I was complaining about the new calling one of our lovely sister missionaries said, "That is one of the most difficult callings in the church, but it is also one of the most important. You are teaching the kids gospel truths through music and those songs will stay with them their entire lives." I appreciated the sentiment but I wasn't molified. So on the way home I did what I always do when I am upset or frustrated. I called my mom. After commiserating with me for a little bit my mom said, "These kids need you to share your love of music with them. Not all of them will respond the way Sam and James do, but some of them will. The important thing is that you try to teach them to love music and love the primary songs." I hung up with my mom and actually felt a little bit better. Maybe this calling won't be as painful as I thought...
Then I talked to John. I explained my reasons for hating the calling (all selfish reasons, I assure you) and he called me on it. We got in an argument and while I was downstairs trying to fight the urge to strangle him, he was upstairs finding a way to help me feel better. He pulled out the Ensign from September 2007 and opened it up to Elder Bednar's talk, "Seek Learning By Faith."
It answered all of my questions and calmed all of my fears. One particular quote that helped said, "Learning by faith requires spiritual, mental, and physical exertion and not just passive reception. It is in the sincerity and consistency of our faith-inspired action that we indicate to our Heavenly Father and His Son, Jesus Christ, our willingness to learn and receive instruction from the Holy Ghost... The learning I am describing reaches far beyond mere cognitive comprehension and the retaining and recalling of information. The type of learning to which I am referring causes us to put off the natural man (Mosiah 3:19), to change our hearts (Mosiah 5:2), to be converted to the Lord, amd to never fall away (Alma 23:6)."
John won the argument and in the sweetest possible way. I am so lucky to have such a great husband and I am so thankful that Heavenly Father answers my prayers multiple times so that when I am too stubborn to acknowledge the answer the first two times he knocks me over the head with a third.