Monday, March 10, 2008

change

I understand the importance of change in our lives; for without change, we do not grow. But honestly, I am not a big fan. Our house is officially on the market and we are facing the reality of a lot of change and I am not sure that I am ready for it. I love our neighbors and our neighbor hood. I even love our house with all of its little quirks. Most especially, I love our ward. I am not ready to give up the wonderful people and the excitement and growth that comes along with a ward of mostly new members. I am going to be sad to say goodbye to our beautiful West African brothers and sisters and all of the dental student friends we have made who will also be moving away shortly.
Don't get me wrong, I am excited for the move (when it eventually happens, considering how slow the market is these days). I am excited for a new house and the challenge it takes to make it our own space. I am thrilled to move closer to John's work so we can get a little more time with him every day. Even a new ward with just one calling instead of three will be refreashing. I just hate that I have to leave part of my life behind in order to do all of this. I get so attached to the people around me that when we leave it feels like a part of me gets left behind with them. How many times can this happen until I don't have enough of me to keep together anymore?

5 comments:

International Tease said...

I totally understand--also not a fan of change. But you'll find that the holes of everything you left behind are filled with the wonderful friends you'll make in your new home!

Danielle said...

I thought I could never replace my old ward. I haven't replaced it, but I have certainly made some WONDERFUL new friends in my new ward. I am also loving my neighborhood, I know you'll find the place that's right for you.

Heather said...

I read this last night and tried to figure out how I felt and how to respond and while I don't go out looking for big changes, I grew up with it and learned a few things...I wouldn't claim too much :) First thing is while I leave a part of me behind, I also get to take a part of everyone else I have learned to love with me that fills the holes where I have given myself away. I also got a smack in the face last night with a blessing, that I think applies here, I knew it before and have clung to it at times, but Heavenly Father won't give us more then we can handle...as I was chuckling to myself about the difference between what HE thinks I can handle and what I think I can handle, the blessing went on to say that while I may think what I can handle is less then Heavenly Father does, he only stretches us enough to make us grow and that's where we use the Atonement to finish building up the gaps. I was totally blindsided as I was recalled to something I clung to so much for so many years...hopefully that will help you too :) We don't want to go either, just so you know. Keep your chin up!

yamsey said...

I am so lucky to have friends who understand how I feel. Thanks ladies!

ShaNae and Zack said...

I'd heard that you guys were moving. That's so sad. Seems like it's a constant thing in our ward though. I am sure you all will be very happy where you end up.